This morning, I have decided to blog and maybe it will help me to do better for myself.

I let myself eat things and shouldn't and I need a change. My 2nd fill was on 05/11, and since then i have lost 4lbs. Let me tell myself what i ate yesterday... Breakfast(7am), i had yogurt w/ strawberries and Granola, and water-which isn't a bad choice, i just need to stick to low fat. . Lunch(11:30), i had Turkey w/ Dressing--okay i had gravy too, that was so a bad choice. no drink until i got back to my desk, and continued w/ my 32oz of water i had that morning. About 2PM i had Liptons diet green tea(Had drank all my water). No Snacks, got home(4PM) and had left over grilled pork ribs-like two bites the country style no bone, with mustard...Went and bought some groceries, my son was having a field trip to day, had to get stuff for a sack lunch. Then ordered Pizza for dinner and ate just the topping of a thin crust ham/mushrooms/black olive pizza- believe me i tried to eat the crust, but i couldn't- took one bite and the pain hit. so i stopped and just stuck w/ the topping. Then i made sandwiches for the kids for lunch cleanned the kitchen, did a load of clothes and straightened up my room. Sat and watched my Y&R and 2 episodes of Couger that i recorded then went to bed(9:30PM). Wait... i did attempt to do 4 push ups. i layed there i did leg lifts in the bed. Here I am awake at 4AM. I am going to fold the clothes in the dryer, and getting ready for work. I will be back in the AM to confess my day.

Whenever I read people's 'cheat confessions' I always think but didnt they (like me!) eat way more than that before the band?! Maybe you didnt have a perfect day but I dont think its anything to get too worried about! I bet youre still doing way better than back in the old days! Good luck!

saturday 05/30/09--(wow end of the month already)

Friday morning, i did better-- breakfast 7am I had an unjury chocol.shake, it was much better than the Herbal Life one,that i was normally drinking... For Lunch(11:30am) i had a grilled ham and cheese on Wheat- For dinner(6:30PM) smoked turkey and beans-.. I need a fill, i find my self just about cleaning my plate, I go next week, I am really looking forward to it. So after dinner, wait let me say this.., I have good and bad news. Bad news is at work I entered the Biggest Loser Contest- I weighed in Tuesday,,, and I did not win the big 880.00 pot. It was split b/w 2 people who lost a total of....... 28lbs.... Darn it that I didn't win, I lost 27Lbs, however good thing is those that lost at least 8% got to split the other 880.00--So after we ate dinner, we went shopping to make Mamma feel better, and bought me new SHOES, it was good for it to be about me. My husband looked but didn't buy, the kids were annoying at the store but that never changes, they chase each other, hit back and forth and then one gets angry and the other is laughing... anyways back to me.. No one else thought they needed any, it was fun to get their opinion and feel worthy of getting something I earned..... after shopping we went to my sisters house. normally the "party house", where i used to consume mucho cerverza...But i stopped drinking beer back in October to prepare myself for the band.... We went and played Darts, it was a lot of fun, I always thought Darts was boring, but not the way they play. oh and I didn't take my own drink, so i had a Diet DP, normally i do not drink carbonated drinks, it pretty much watered down, and it just wet my whistle, i had that and a couple of hand fulls of Cashew nuts.. I had a Very Wonderfuld day. Thanks Be to God.... I have to get busy Cleaning house and get to Church for rehersal.