So, with 6 months to go until banding.... I have good days and bad days, but yesterday I ate like a cow. I mean, OK, I am on my monthly, but the grazing that I did yesterday on cake was disgusting. It makes me wonder if this surgery would even be a benefit for someone like me who can fall so far off the wagon, like I did. I hate myself for what I did. Sometimes I feel like I don't even realize what I am doing until after Ive eaten it, or too much of it. I feel like a f*cking screw up!

I feel like some out of control monster...

i am right there with you coco!!!!!!!!!!! i couldn't stop when i got home from work last night!!!!!!! don't come down hard on urself!!!!!!!!!!!!! u recognized u made a lil mess and now ur going to clean it up!!!!!!! do u exercise????? when i take a lil fall off the wagon...i exercise a little more and my weight doesn't go up...ur going to slip up every now and then...ur not on a diet...well jump back on the wagon 2-gether...2-day...right now!!!!!!!!!

keep up the fight. take it day by day and don't let one day get you down. don't be too hard on yourself.....get back on that wagon!!!! take care of yourself!!!

OH man I so know how you feel! Im doing the six month diet too and Ive messed around with all of these different cleanses and diets its stupid and I"m only down 15 pounds and I'm suppose to be down 30. SIGH. Do you have to lose weight before surgery like me? We have to lose 10% of body weight.