Well today, the harsh reality of this banding thing came crashing in on me. It felt like I ran into a wall while running at top speed.

Today I realized that it does not matter if I have a band or I don't have a band I'm going to have to work at this food thing. It is mental, it is spiritual, and it is painful.

I thought back to the year I spent in OA HOW and realized why it was so regimented, because it is an addiction and it is a dis-Ease.

I'm not defeated but, just lost this battle and will need to go back to the drawing board and create a new plan if I want to win the this war.

So today I am committing to writing at least once a week.

Peace, Love & Health :devil:

I totally agree with you metamorphosis. I thought the idea of it and the way it would work would be a no brainer but I have learned that the logistics of it all still rely on me making the right choices and being conscious of what I am doing when I am eating. Maybe I will do the same and committ to writing once a day. I feel like I have tried everything and am currently very hard on myself for failing but I know that I can make the changes and beat this. I just need to convince myself. Does any of this make sense? I hope so.

It does make perfect sense. And I'm so glad to know I'm not the only one feeling this way.

I totally agree with you metamorphosis. I thought the idea of it and the way it would work would be a no brainer but I have learned that the logistics of it all still rely on me making the right choices and being conscious of what I am doing when I am eating. Maybe I will do the same and committ to writing once a day. I feel like I have tried everything and am currently very hard on myself for failing but I know that I can make the changes and beat this. I just need to convince myself. Does any of this make sense? I hope so.