Ok so today marks 1 full week! I started back to work two days ago. I felt okay considering. I started wearing constrictive tops ie girdle's. Normally I loathe girdles but its actually making me more comfortable, how it holds me together and covers my scars so that its not brushing against my shirt when I move especially when I am sleeping.

I had posted previously that I went out to dinner with friends and I did but I should state that I ate two asian chicken dumplings over a 2 hour period. WHICH I WAS NOT SUPPOSED TO DO!:glare: I was supposed to be consuming liquids and for some reason that just did not register in my head. I am really embarrassed that I just started this journey and I'm already unable to stick to the plan given to me but I'll get back up and try again.

I was in the chat room today and people were talkin about people like me who start eating regular food before they are supposed to. I got offended because just because someone has made a poor decision with regard to eating they should be encouraged not condemned.

As embarassing as it is, we all (the obsese) have an issue with gauging portions and healthy food choices. So since I did not have brain surgery to change my thinking it is going to take time to change my behavior of eating because I'm happy or sad or its sunny or its raining or just because food is within my grasp. Try as I mught to feign perfection, my lackof control in this area of my life proves otherwise. I'll try to stay the course from this point forward. Good Luck to those who may wander on to this entry!:devil:

Ajaxx

I think it's a tough journey for all of us. I understand why you felt embarrassed in the chat room - we always feel guilty when we know we did something we shouldn't have done. I don't think they were actually judging those that eat before the week is over, but they are probably concerned. That first week of liquid is to allow the band to heal, not to test your willpower. Hopefully you ate the food so slowly that it had no impact.

Hang in there, today is a new day to improve!

Hi All,

First let me start by saying that I have been reading threads and have come to the conclusion that this is an Amazing web site. You can learn so much on here and read people's stories, get told to get your act together, get told off and even vent and learn new approaches to everyday dilemmas. That said; I have had the most STRESSFUL banding Experience and I MESSED UP! I am not looking to get into it with anyone behind this. There are no words of disappointment I have not already told myself.

My 15 yr old nephew ( who I think of as my son) was assaulted for no reason and beaten they almost killed him and tried to hurt my sister when she tried to save his life. This all happened 4 days after I had surgery and it was really terrifying. I went to pick him and my family up and ended up taking a Bite of pizza. Just One Bite. I felt terrible! (not health wise, just disappointed in self) the next day I took 2 bites of chicken breast which had been fired no skin or batter. I am an emotional eater and although this is not an excuse I was just eating out of nervousness!

I went back to liquids and mushy foods today. I have not gained any weight. I lost 1.5 lb. but I just feel bad that I did that.

I just wanted to be up front about what I did and hear if anyone else has messed up and moved on!

Please feel free to share on any experiences and if you have to bash me or feel the need to express your disappointments go on just be honest about where that comes from.

You may not know me, you may only know some of my story but you may feel the need to Judge me. . .

And to this I say ok....