So mentally, weekends are proving very difficulty to stay focused. Sitting around the house I obsess over food and make bad choices versus when I am at work, I am focused on something else and barely spare a thought for food other than the obvious times...I dunno...I feel like if I stay at the house I am trying to find something to snak on and we have diligently begun our purge process of unhealthy foods, tonight I got so desperate for carbs I ate some leftover frozen garlic toast...ugh...dont want to play this mental game once preop and surgery gets here...on the other hand, my other addiction SHopping and spending money is usually what happens if I leave the house and I am desperately trying to get out of debt considering I am dropping 14K on this surgery (freaking insurance!)...I dunno,just needed to vent...I will succeed, just feeling sorry for myself...g'nite!

i had to self pay also, and it is hard to be around my gymnast daughter, she can eat what ever she wants. so i try to stay as busy as i can on weekends .i goo to the mall and just walk around alot i do spend some money but i am working out a little bit while im spending. good luck.

Well, consider doing something better for yourself. I know, on the weekends, we all try to clean our houses and do our laundry and grocery shopping BUT get up on Saturday or Sunday morning and go to a hiking trail trailhead and park the car and TAKE A WALK. I'm saying 3 miles so, by the time you drive there (look at state parks or county parks for trails), park, walk (once you're in shape 3 miles is less than a hour by a good bit), get back in your car, go home, shower, get clean clothes on.....you've done yourself a great service AND you've kept yourself away from the fridge for hours.

I love your feet!

Gosh, it is hard to stay on the straight and narrow before surgery. If it were easy, you wouldn't be waiting for your band! I have only read this one entry from you so I don't know what you have in place working for you. I would suggest keeping that food diary. It is so easy to dismiss what has been eaten if you don't have to look at it. Tomorrow, or today, I guess is another day and I hope it went better for you!

Teena

Well, mY mom dragged my lazy bum out of bed (day off memorial day) and we ran errands, made both of us some banana protein shakes and head into town (35 minute drive to mild civilization) a bit longer to the islands/ beaches...places to be in other words...we took my friends Trikke (trikke.com) to a local parking lot and played and had all this done by 1 Pm...I just tend to lack motivation on the weekend and my husband and I are kind of at a lull in our relationship (7 years together, 2 years married this summer)...so I do tend to get depressed and I guess that is where the self pity comes into play...my mom and I are gonna start heading over to one of the islands and riding bikes, trikkes, etc on the weekends and stay away from my house...I have just a few days of "freedom" left and have plans to have sushi once more and a big @ss steak once more before June 3rd...then on to some serious discipline...ya'll need to check out the 'new wave oven' we cooked some chicken breasts in that sucker tonight and man were they good (I blogged about it earlier)...thank you for all your words of encouragement and Teena, as soon as I am brave enough I will be posting my "before pictures" and you can see the cool INk I have on my back (only other place)...