I am four days pre-op and beginning to feel the nerves that, until now, have manifested as more of a denial or unwillingness to accept the the finality of this chapter in my life. Every once in a while I begin to question my decision. Is this really necessary? Am I really that big? Does my size really bother me? I decided I needed to post some pictures of myself to chart my journey and realized I don't have any. I have refused to be in any pictures other than the few times I was successful in losing 20 or so pounds on a yo yo diet that, like the name, yo yoed right back on me. When I try to figure out how I have managed to take so few pictures in the last few years, I realize I am embarrassed or even unwilling to look at myself. When I pass full length mirrors or even a store window I Immediately look in the other direction a habit I developed when I was very young. I am embarking on possibly one of the biggest adventures of my life and I guess it is normal to be nervous or afraid. I hope I am making the right decision...

:thumbup:dont be afraid everything is going to be ok the only thing you should be afraid of is changing your mind that would be a big mistake i was banded on 02/26/09 i arrived at the center at 730am my surgery wasnt scheduled until 930am so i had all that time to think i was sooooooo scared and almost changed my mind but then i thought about how sick i was of seeing myself and feeling tired all the time not doing anything but staying home i didnt want to be seen in public and i stuck it out i did it! the worst thing for me was being put to sleep but now that i know how it is i could do it again dr will give you something for your nerves to relax you and it makes you forget you are scared then put a mask over your face ask you to breath and thats it 1/2 hour later you'll wake up feel a little discomfort when you breath but they can give you medicine for that walk you around and thats it the rest is up to you trust me it sounds worst than what it is i am so glad i did it let me know if there is something else i can help you with good luck dont worry really!!!!

michelle:thumbup:

Beka- thanks for sharing. I am almost ready to meet with my surgeon and schedule the big date! I am nervous and very scared. It felt good to read your post because I totally related to what you were saying.

Thanks,

Faris

For some reason, I wasn't afraid and I knew this was what I needed...until the day of surgery. Then I was anxious, scared, questioned my decision. I was banded on 3/30/09. It has been a great journey so far. I believe it is worth the change. Hang in there. :cursing: