I am sure that Im not the first and certainly wont be the last to travel this long road to banding. *sighs* I received my second copy of the weight loss surgery disc today (as the first one arrived with a crack) and wondered where i could get this type of money from. personal loan grrr still like the idea of the superanuation payment scheme money from the sky maybe?.... hmmm i know.... maybe i can sell of some of the gifted bottles of wine that have backed up in my house (not just the pantry) (ps my friends havent worked out that i dont drink wine yet lol)or just trade them for a winning lotto ticket! speed up the process a little....maybe. seriously wish there was a bit more money in the bank!

i had my knee surgury on tuesday to repair knee damage (suprise suprise) and could only dream that they do the band while i was numb and hope to god i never ever had to have another metal rod shoved into my spinal cavity ever again! (please tell me banders are knocked out and there is no grinding sounds and weird bending sensations!)

I really wish this process wasnt so long. As if the months of 'pro'ing and 'con'ing wernt crazy enough. At least there is more mental space to start cutting down nasties and continue to *try* and reprogram the little man in my brain that switches the light on when im doing something that i really shouldnt be. in the dark and oblivious has to stop now!!!

now about those bottles of wine!!!!!

Buy Health insurance...Is cheaper that paying for the whole thing!!