6/12/2006. Thinking about scheduling. I’m wondering if having the surgery on Thursday August 31 would work. I’d be off the 31st, and Sept 1. Then we have a 3 day weekend. So I’d have 2 days off and a total of 5 to recover. By Sept. 5th I’d be able to at least work from home. And it would only be two days off.

6/13/2006. Thinking about the cost. Read a post from a woman who pointed out she easily could have spent that much on a car, that she would spend a couple of hours a day at most in, for a few years, or spend it on the body she’s in 24/7 and get more years in that body. Makes a lot of sense to me.

Clothes are hard for me. I want to go out and buy new stuff, even though I don’t expect it to fit for long. I have to work on that. I need to go through that mess in back bedroom and organize it by type and perhaps size.

Emotional eating. Thinking about why. I’ve had two reasons come to me, they seem too easy is some whys. One is control, since mom and dad tried to control what I ate. The second is developing early.

6/14/2006. Meeting with Dr. Montgomery today. I’m hoping we can set a date. I realize from how I’m feeling that I am really looking forward to doing this.

I’ve always thought that I wasn’t one of those who waited until I’d lost weight to start my life, and in many ways I was right. I have a good marriage, job I love and a life that is good. But there are a few things. One being BR surgery. Another being REALLY nice clothes, esp. a leather jacket. There are good reasons for waiting for those, but I’m looking forward to having those reasons gone.

6/16/2006. Got the date I wanted, Aug 31st. Still waiting for Joe to approve, but I think he will. So now, I have to get over this “Last supper” mentality and lose those 15 pounds to make this safer. One advantage to having the date so far in the future is I can lose the weight without having to do the liquid thing. So I want to take advantage of that.

I’m wondering if when I am finally at a stable size, I’ll still want to buy as many clothes as I do now. I’m not yet in touch with why I do now, expect that I like clothes, the colors and the textures. They are fun.

6/19/2006. Talked to Joe, and Aug 31st should be fine. So now, I feel like I can get excited.

I want to be sure I get some “Then” pics. I don’t like “Before” and “After” because the “after” makes it sound like at some point you are done and you just go on with your life as it was.

6/20/2006. OK, I don’t want to go on the liquid diet pre-surgery. So, what can I do to lose at least a pound a week until surgery?

• No snacking between meals.
  
• Limit carbs, no white ones.
  
• Eat lean protein and veggies.
  
• Watch liquid calories.