My mom left today, which was a little sad for me. I know she didn't have a very fun visit - she spent the whole time trying to help me or cleaning my house/working out in my yard. That makes me feel a little bad, especially considering Mother's Day is this weekend plus her birthday is a little after that but... I know if it was my daughter I'd do the same with no second thoughts.

But having said that... it is kind of nice to be alone! I can do my own thing, walk by myself, take a nap when I am tired, and not have someone coming in asking questions such as, "where is the liquid soap to refill this dispenser?" (love you Ma!).

I still have intense gas pains and can still feel it moving around in my back, but it seems like every day - and even every hour, things start to feel better. I feel even more human that I have since this whole thing started. Last night I was able to turn onto my side, which helped! I am not a back sleeper AT all and I think that made things a little worse, that at first I could just lay on my back.

I think my biggest problem was just not knowing what to expect. I thought I had done my research and knew everything that would happen, but I think looking back my research was more on the diet and the workings of the band, and not the ACTUAL SURGERY. I have only had one other surgery and I was 5 or 6 when that was done (tonsils removed). I never knew about all the gas and how much it hurts and how much all of it knocks you out.

I think had I been more prepared, I would have felt a lot more at ease. Instead I was left with so much discomfort that I kept thinking "what have I done to myself?". I was very down on the surgery, down on my decision, and disappointed that it had come to that.

But, knowing that today was even better than yesterday gives me comfort that tomorrow will be just the same!

believe me when i say it will get better. i am four months out. i can sleep on mt stomach. this is the best sleep i have ever had.i lost my mother a week beforemother,s day in 2001. . it is still fresh in my mind.happy mothers day. if you are a mother.sil