Well now, lets see. Here it is, 2 months since my last blog entry (which was a really good one if I must admit it myself) and I just had to come and update.

Good news....#1. the scale is going down. and #2. I only let it get up to 226 before I finally decided enough was enough. :thumbup:

Bad news...I JUST NOW got the rejuvination I needed to restart my journey. But I guess that isnt really bad news, right?

My husband and I have joined 24 hour fitness and tomorrow we have our first meetings with our personal trainers. This dream is going to become a reality again for me. This time focused on a goal I know I can reach because I have reached it once already. When I was first banded I had my goal set at 165 then just changed it to 16anything. I got down to 173 and for the life of me could not get those last 4 pounds off. I felt like a failure because I did not reach the NUMBER I wanted. Now I know what to do. Strive to feel good. If memory serves me correctly the 18somethings is when I could look in the mirror and think, "hmm, I look pretty good!". That is what I wanna be able to say again. So, this time I am not going to obsess over it. Another thing I am going to do differently is the way I eat. Before, I had gotten stuck in a rut, eating the same things (diet foods) over & over. This time I am going to use the band for what it can do for me. I am going to eat "normal" (ok relatively normal) foods and just listen to my band tell me when I am full. That way I am not depriving myself of tasty things, but focusing more on the quantity. At least, that is what I am going to try to do. If it doesn't work, I will try something else. :glare: Even if all I can get down is 4 bites, at least it will be 4 bites of something good, ya know? I dunno....what I DO know is I am going to make it. For sure. And I will blog more so I can be accountable :sad:. Go ME!