Munchies, Fast Food...Still losing control.......
OK, so since I wont probably be banded til October 2009, I decided yesterday that I would really try with my eating all of this garbage and fast food. :thumbup:
SO this morning, I check my blood sugar and it was kinda high, which for me is actually normal. :glare: But, I decided that instead of a breakfast sandwich from BK, that I would buy some heart healthy and lower sugar oatmeal... which I actually like. SO I did and I ate a cup and I was content...:sad:
Later on in the day I went to a friend's house and had a little to drink and began to have the munchies and on the way home I was really craving.... :drool:SO I decided that, I would get a a salad from BK...yeah right!
I ordered probably the most fattening fried chicken sandwich w/fries and just as I was about to pull from the window..greedy me ordered one of their oreo cookie sundae shakes. :blushing:And boy, did this lady pour those crushed oreo cookies on .... SO I did it...before I blinked I was done with it all and felt like crap...:mad:
I remember my stomach hurting on the way home and thinking to myself...."when are :thumbdown:you going to just stop?" I feel so low..
I wanted to throw it all up..because I felt so greasy and heavy, but I just couldnt bring myself to that point...so I did what I usually do when I binge...I went to sleep...I had a 4 hour coma and now Im woke...I hate myself for what I do today.... This cigarette is making me feel even more gross:sad:
Thursday Im going to see the doc, and I hope this new doc....wants to help me...
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