OOPS! My bad......
Okay, three weeks ago I got my second fill. I had 2 cc's added to my band. The last three weeks have been rough. Almost everything I've eaten has come right back up. At first I thought that maybe it would get better after a few days. Then I started eating only about 3-4 bites each meal, and I would usually be okay. I just got used to not being able to eat. And it didn't hurt that the scale was quickly moving downward! Yes, I knew I had too much restriction. Yes, I knew I wasn't getting proper nutrition. And yes, the reason I didn't call my doctor was because I was obsessed with losing as much as I could before my next appointment, because I KNEW the doctor would take out some fill.
So, today was the day. I got up on the scale at the doctor's office and I had lost SIXTEEN pounds in three weeks. The nurse TRIPLE checked my weight she was so shocked. :thumbup:
As I sat in the little patient room, alone, I started running through excuses, and trying to come up with a reason for him not to remove some fluid. Yea, I had nothing. I didn't sit very long before he rushed in and asked me if I was alright. He had this panicked look on his face, so right there I knew I was going to lose some fill. I explained that I hadn't been able to eat very much, without lots of discomfort and the extremely pleasant vomiting. He of course, wanted to know why I hadn't called him, and I gave him the lame, "I didn't want to bother you," excuse. He told me I had basically lost all the weight because of malnutrition and possibly dehydration. He explained that all the vomiting could have led to band slippage or pouch distention and other horrible things. He told me I should never lose more than 2-3 pounds a week, and that this process can take years. And they want us to be healthy as we lose, and blah blah blah.
I hate to say this, but I had a huge smile on my face the entire time he was chastising me. I lost sixteen pounds! WOOT! Yea, I did it wrong, I know, but I want this weight off so bad, that I'm pretty doggone happy. He ended up taking 1 cc out, and telling me he hoped I GAINED about 5 pounds in the next three weeks, through proper nutrition.
Okay, I am going to work on proper nutrition, for sure, but I will be damned if I will gain five friggin pounds! Uh-uh, no sir-ee.
This process messes with your mind. How screwed up am I that I don't really care that I could have hurt myself, as long as I lost weight? And why the hell wasn't I able to starve myself PRE-band? Why is it so easy now to just not eat? Sheesh. This is one craaaazy ride!! :biggrin:
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