The hardest thing for me to deal with after being banded is that I’ve had to learn how to live my life without “using” food. Not that I’m trying to be dramatic, but I consider myself to be a recovering addict, and that’s pretty much something that no one goes over with you in pre-op orientation. For the longest time, I couldn’t figure out why I would have periods ranging from slight sadness to extreme anger, and it would happen all of a sudden. Then, the other day, after an explosive confrontation with someone, it came to me so clearly: I’m having to deal with, cope with life without my “crutch.” It’s like being an alcoholic or a recovering drug addict. I mean, I could make any situation so much better for the time it took to wallow in some food. Bad day, argument with my husband, coworkers driving me crazy, overdrawn bank account…whatever…no worries…give me a cheeseburger from the Sonic, a large order of onion rings, a route 44 Slushy and a bag of Hershey’s kisses with almonds and my world could come crashing down around me, and I’d die smiling; but no more. Now, I have to deal with things…REALLY deal with them. I see things clearly…too clearly at times. But hey, I’ll gladly learn how to live this way, and I mean “gladly”; gratefully, happily and gladly.

I totally feel you.. I was myself was trying to figure out my mood swings, but after just reading your blog today, I just realized what you wrote makes alot of sense.. ooh the good old days, when our best friend (food) never let us down. Thanks for sharing your thoughts.

I love reading your stories. It is so true about the addiction we have with food. Glad to see that you are doing good with your band!

Thank you so much. That is so nice to hear. I'm glad you enjoyed it.

Wendy-I am just barely starting this journey and hope to be banded by summers end !! I cant thank you enough for your total complete honesty on your experience and look forward to reading your post. It is comforting to see that this process isnt all rainbows & buterflies and that even through the rough times it can be done !!! THANKS !!!

Thanks so much FFC,

And you're right, it's not all all rainbows and butterflies, but it's so definately worth it! Don't let the hard times or negativity that you may encounter from people and/or other Bandsters get you down. Do what you're supposed to do and enjoy the ride. Celebrate every lost ounce! By the way, I have some video blogs on youtube if you'd like to check them out; That Crazy Fat Chick.