Hi :thumbup:

So I had a revelation today. Expressing your feelings is healthy. For so long I have been a very private person. I had to make everything appear hunky dorry on the outside, so no one could see the pain on the inside. I have such a fear that if people know my struggles or worrys that they won't like me. I have to keep all my feelings to myself so I won't be judged. I think that is why I turned to food. I am even embarresed to cry in front of my own family. I am uncomfortable being that vunerable. I think that is why I turned to food so long ago...food doesn't judge. But food is a false friend...it is temporary comfort, then it is gone. I realized that if I am fully going to make the best of this surgery and truly change my life, I have to make some internal chages as well as eating habits.

So I have decided to do a daily blog. I'm not going to suffer in silence anymore! Instead of eating my feelings and internalising everything, I'm going to purge it on here. I hope if you are reading you can get something out of it too!

I hope that made sense..I feel like I'm rambling :thumbdown: