OK, so I was not expecting to be poked that many times.

I went in last thursday optimistic but a lil' anxious about my first fill. Well... it did not happen. I have a high tolerance for pain, but I think it was so much that ran together... embarrassment, dissappointment, fear all running together while this needle is being jammed and you can hear it hitting the port but not the area that the needle needs to go into. Personally, I think I have a flipped port or it has changed movement if not a complete 180. But that was so weird. In two days I will go in again for a fill attempt, however this time it will be under fluoro. I pray that all goes well. Everything happens for a reason. But I tell you what I am not proud of... I seriously fell off the wagon after that fill attempt. I sunk back into my old behavior... sad eat... mad eat.

Nothing to do but jump back on!

That's the beauty of the band. This is long term. Don't beat yourself up over a small setback. Be patient, and hang in there.

No...don't let one setback set you back. We all fall down, but the ones who are successful get up! So don't look at your past mistakes, focus instead on your future success.

Sounds like you have a good attitude, so good luck! I am cheering for you!