March 15, 2009

It's 12:09 a.m. and I can't sleep for thinking about the life that I have missed because of my struggle with obesity. For the past 10 years, I have gained and lost the same 50 or so pounds several times. In November of 2008, I decided to take matters into my own hands and I had the lap band surgery. I thought it was the answer to my prayers and in some ways it was...I did not gain any weight during the Thanksgiving and Christmas holidays (for the first time). However, actual weight loss has not been easy. I thought I would be half-way to goal by now, but I am not. I have lost 17 lbs. in about three months.

I recognized that I would have been more successful had I been more disciplined. I have some issues that must be addressed in order to have any weight loss success. I tend to sabatoge myself in amazing ways...chips, candy, icecream...you name it.

So...I need to recommit to myself and my success. I am starting this blog as a daily journal to record my thoughts, successes, and challenges. I plan to exercise daily as well. Okay...I can do this!

March 17, 2009

Today is my daughter's birthday. She will turn 5 years old at 10:00 a.m.! We are celebrating her birthday at a park. I am going to be surrounding my slider foods...cake, chips, etc. The good thing is that I am scheduled for a fill tomorrow morning.

This fill will hopefully make recommitting much easier. My TOM is coming to an end too, so I can start weighing myself again tomorrow morning.

I am on my way...

Wow...i finally found someone that i can relate to...i feel the same exact way as you do...ive been filled for 3 months and have 4cc in my band...i feel very little restriction and i eat what i want...its like sometimes i feel like i have no control!!!