Dear Folks,

Well, it is definitely time that I come clean with myself and return to my blog and face the fact that I have cheated quite a bit in the last 3 weeks. I haven't been getting on Lapbandtalk.com much because I did not want to face it, but its a reality I know o too well.

I'm not here to excuse myself and my actions in anyway, but more and more I can see ever so clearly how little I actually take the time to love myself. I just let myself fall off the bandwagon after spending $12K on a Bariatric surgery in December?? What the hell is going on with me? I must vent these emotions because I want to get to the bottom of it. I did just quit a really bad job situation last week and start a new one; yes, I guess I've been under a bit of stress, but that is no excuse for me to just walk away and cheat like I have.

So far, since my Lapband surgery on Dec. 22, 2008, I've lost about 18 lbs. and have got to get back on the horse and go back up this mountain of a journey. I've got to embrace myself and take it one day at a time. I ask for prayers and thoughts as I push forward with each of you at my side. Also, if anyone would be interested in communicating or being accountability partners or just friends that chat about their journey, please let me know. I would just really enjoy being able to email back and forth with someone else who is on their weight loss journey after their Band Surgery and welcome you to email me. My email address is: marialcole@gmail.com

Tommorrow I return to my Doctor for my first fill. This cajun girl is getting ready to kick it up a notch or two! Wish me luck and all the best to you guys,

Lauren :toetap05: