I just cant sleep really I am sitting here at 230am and I am a wake like its noon. I dont have to go to work today, tomorrow is my big day and I am so excited. I havent been this excited since I was a child the night b4 xmas the day b 4 school. I just hope this is the answer to my dreams. I have been walking on my tredmil but my lower back hurts like crazy and now that I know I dont have kidney failure I know its all this junk in my trunk (BIG BUTT) LOL. I am going to walk this ass off literaly . Wait not all of it. lol My mind just wont shut down I lay here close my eyes and then I go over the things I need for surgery and I know I have everything. I wonder where my low life ex is laying (not to much thought on that) better her then me oh sure its good now but wait untill the nut case unravels lol. I had a pretty decent conversation with my son he wants me to help buy him a car haha this from the kid that put a huge dumb tatoo on his neck. Yeah he can hold his breath on that one. Well I am staying with my sister for a couple of days after surgery my nieces and nephew are excited to nurse me back to health. I just love those kids they are the best I am so lucky to be auntie Shell. Well I guess I will lay here flip the channels and let my mind run wild untill my eyes defeat my mind and close. Just think 1 more night and God willing I will be banded.