This is my first blog. I really have no idea where I'm going with this but I feel it is important to jot down my feelings about this transformation I'm about to go through. I have no doubt, only confidence that receiving the Lap Band is going to be successful. And because I know my success will transform me into a healthier, cuter and much smaller version of myself I want to be able to look back and read about my experience and share it with others.

I want to remember me. I never want to forget about the struggles I've had or the pain that this fat has caused me. I think some do want to forget because for most of us it's just to painful to remember. But that pain and those struggles are what made me who I am today. I often wonder if I was always thin, if I was always pretty as the world sees it...then who would I be? I woulnd't be me, I really don't think I'd be even a close version of the self that I love. I don't want to lose that person.

As much as I hate this fat, as much as I hate being overweight it has made me strong, it has made me see things in a different light. I'm greatful for that.

My surgery date has been scheduled for February 27th. Right around the corner. My stomache is in knots...I'm excited and nervous. I'm thrilled and worried all at the same time. But mostly I'm thankful. I have spent the last three years researching the band, asking questions, attending multiple seminars, doubting, desiring and dreaming. And now it's finally about to happen.

I'm a lucky lady. I have a wonderful husband who is very supportive of this decision I've made for myself. We got married in December 2006. He has a charming little boy named Logan who lives with us full time and he is a wonderful little guy. We had a baby girl in January 2008...so she just turned one :blushing:!!! So now we are complete little family with lots of love for each other.

Well I guess that's about it for now. I'd love to hear your stories, feedback or just random silliness!!

'Random silliness' is my middle name! But seriously, that was very well said! You are a wise woman. As you pointed out, who we are changes with each experience we have, but we never lose who we were before. -BG