I realized the other day, that I have for the first time since I was a little kid felt a kind of piece.

The lack of being hungry all of the time and not being so hungry before a meal is somehow making me feel so much more at peice.

I sit down for every meal and worry at first that this will be the time that I eat and don't get full on very little, or that I'm still hungry after I'm done with my portion. But when it doesn't happen, it is such a relief to feel in control, that it seems to make everything better.

I hope this continues, but still fear it may end at each meal. I never imagined an actual change in my mental state because of my ability to control my eating, but it is definitely there, I hope it stays.

tHAT WAS TOUCHING I SO FEEL YOU AND CANT WAIT TO FEEL THAT SAME SATISFACTION. GOOD FOR YOU

I hope so too. I'm still in the fear zone when it comes to eating. I'm afraid to eat at a restaurant or even with family because I don't know if it will stay down. I am glad I now have what I call a surgical conscience to help me win this battle. It's been going on so long.

I have not had this feeling of peace yet, and fear it won't come and all this was for not. I was banded on 12/31. I get my first fill on 1/29 and am hoping that will keep me from getting hungry so quickly. Have you gotten a fill yet?

No, I haven't had a fill yet, but I have restriction. I think everyone is so different because of what I found out about the band not having the same amounts to start, and some surgeons empty anything that is in there to start. My didn't so, I probably already have 3cc and with the swelling associated with first getting the band, it has been working really good. I can feel it getting looser each day though, and I'm sure I will want the fill pretty bad by 4 weeks.

Don't worry you will get there.