I went for my first fill today, and bounded onto the scales. I was ready! I took my shoes off and Tiffany (my favorite nurse, EVER,) said, "Socks too." I was like, "Honey, if I could get by with it, I'd be on the scales, BUCK NAKED! So, I was hoping for a 15 pound loss, but got 16! Elation! Bliss! Joy!

I go in for my first fill and made the grave mistake of looking where my Dr. stuck the needle in. It didn't hurt, but I have a serious aversion to "looking" at needles or blood. So, I look away; quickly, and just when I think I won't puke and/or pass out, my Dr. says, "I need you to sit up and come over here to the x-ray machine. OMG, I can kind of see the needle poking out of my port. I look away; quickly...but not quickly enough. I'm standing there drinking that stuff, and just when I'm hoping that I won't puke and/or pass out, there's the needle, on the x-ray screen! I'm hanging in there, and looking at the ceiling, and finally I say, "Is it okay if I sit down?" My Doctor tells me that I can sit because we're through, and just when I think that maybe I won't puke and/or pass out, he comes over and just pops that needle out! Jeez! But, after some apple juice I was good to go. Nothing could get me down after that; not even learning that I have to be on liquids until tomorrow and I don't get to have any spaghetti tonight. Oh well, no worries. I'm just glad to be on this journey!

OMG!! He left the needle poked in?? EEEK! Imagine me white-faced and fanning myself. Oh Wendy, I'm totally freaked.

Lena

That is EXACTLY what I was doing!

Oh, gawd. Now I'm scared to death of the 5th. (whimper)

NO, NO, NO! I didn't mean to scare you! It was more funny than anything. The pain was nothing, it's just my aversion to needles. I can't look! I'm a big weinie that way. I swear I have a huge tattoo at the small of my back. It took 3 hours and I didn't flinch, but you let me see a needle and I'll pass out! Don't think for a second that I wouldn't do it all over again in a heartbeat! My life is so amazing now. I've never been this happy!

I'm needle phobic. Doc knows this, but he may not remember. Then again, I may not need a fill. I still can't eat some meats, and definitely not more than 2 oz by volume.

Get him to use some Lidocaine first to numb you, but it's not painful hardly at all. I just can't look. You'll be fine. You're strong. You didn't come this far to back down now, remember that!