Well thats it, going to pay my deposit on Tue and then my op will be booked for 21st April 2009 and between now and then i have to save €4000.... it can be done and i will do it......i want to lose weight i've tried every diet going prob spent double that on buying and the books joining clubs/gym etc.

I've always been a size 18, i can remember going shopping on my 16th birthday and getting size 18 clothes.......i'll be 30 in 2010 and i do not want to be going shopping for size 18 clothes then. i'm so looking forward to being able to walk into any shop and try on any clothes.....i wanna collect clothes insead of bloody shoes, handbags and sunglasses.

I've moved away from my home town and i want to take this chance of being away to change me for the better..... i want to meet people that i was in school with and them to say aw u look great instead of "ah u have not changed a bit", but on the upper hand i was always the fat on in school, now when i go home to visit the girls i see that i went to school with are getting fat!!! and think welcome to my world ( but hopefully not for much longer) Dont get me wrong.....a perk of my size is having a nice chest, just hope when i start to lose my weight i wont go flat chested....

I'm booked to have the op in Brussels....and i think i am going to go alone......i've only told a few people about my ( doing a Fern Britton and going to tell people ot was all thru cutting back and hard work lol) Just dont want to be the topic of lunch about how i could not lose weight all by myself.

One of my best friends is not even going to find out....i tried to talk to her once and she totally was disgusted by the op ( by the way this girl is 5'10 size 10) she thinks that fat people are just lazy.....nice eh??

The 1st step of my new life is starting and i excited, nervous, scared. I just hope that losing the weight will make me happy as i think it will.......but still i'm gonna have fun finding out eh? i dont want to be described as the heavy set girl anymore :tounge_smile: people say ah you are lovely the way u are but...i think unless i try this i will never be happy. its alot of money, but then away how much do u value your health/happiness?

so the count down has begun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Good Luck and great job making this big decision.