The countdown begins!
Sixteen days until my surgery!! I have been shopping for protein drinks. Purchased a few books to help me along my journey. Stocked up on things I may need post-op. It is bizarre. I am doing all these things to get ready, and yet it seems surreal. I can't believe I am actually doing this!!
Last night at dinner, I ordered a sandwich and fries, because I know those foods won't play a big part in my "new" life. When I eat something, I can't help but think, "That might be the last time I ever have this." And I feel silly for feeling a little tinge of sadness. Then I think, "HOW silly! It's just food!"
Today I went into GNC to search for protein powders. I felt so stupid just walking in. Fat girl in a health food store! I almost turned around and left before I even went in. Part of me wishes I had. The aisles were so tiny and I couldn't fit between a shipment of boxes and almost knocked them all down. I felt ridiculous. The tiny sales girl tried to help me find what I needed. I couldn't wait to get out of there.
I can't wait until I finally feel comfortable with myself. Just being me.
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