Oh me oh my...it's my party and I can cry if I want too.

Well, my kids are getting on my last nerve. I yelled at them this morning, then cried on the way to work because I yelled. But you know, they have forgotten all about it, I am the one that feels the punishment. My sweet little girls, I just love them so much it hurts.

I have been really moody lately. Taking it out on my husband and weepy. My MIL wants me to take an antidepressent. She is a drug pusher:ohmy:. No not really, she works for a doctor and get's lots of samples. It is because the one year anniversary of my mom's passing is coming up and I'm taking it pretty hard. Let me just say it is so hard and hurts so bad. See, crying now. I just want my mom back.

My weight is bouncing from 205 to 208. I am so close to being under 200 and it seems like I'm never going to get there. My DH weighs 215 and I weighed in at 208. We are officially in a race to see who can get below 200 first. I need to beat him so bad. I have never been able to beat him at anything. I want this victory!

I have been working out with my personal trainer 2 days a week. I need to up my exercise at home and up my water intake. I think the lack of water in my diet may be part of the reason for my body not letting go. So, I am going to up my exercise and water. I am doing pretty well with eating the right foods and right amount. I really think water and exercise are going to help me beat him.

Wish me luck

Lucy