I have struggled with my weight for years, especially these last five or so, well I have committed to myself to lose the weight and keep it off this time, roller coastering is wearing down my system and alot of health issues keep coming up, so for me to continue the wonderful life I have currently and to be around for the future, I have made up my mind. I hope that each and everyone will be supportive with me not just because you asked but because you deeply care.

No I don't want to be skinny, if that is what you asking, I want to be healthier:

So I can go outside in shorts and not be embarassed by my fat thighs.

So that I wont be ashamed by my imperfections.

So that I wont be thought of as one of the statistics of obese America.

So I will see a difference between myself months ago and myself minutes ago.

So I will have confidence

So my thighs wont touch when I sit down.

So when I moisturize my legs they don't jiggle.

So my breasts would be more perky.

So I wouldn't have to look for a bigger size in the department store.

So I wont have stretch marks.

So that I wont be the sidekick to my beautiful friend

So I can have higher self esteem.

So I can motivate myself to achieve any goal I set my mind too.

So that I can fit into a size small rather than an average mediocre medium.

So when I put my jeans in the dryer I want have to worry if I can fit in them again.

These are just a few of the things that come to mind. A few known people say wait til after the holidays, NOPE, I wanted to do it thru the holiday to prove to myselft I can avoid the tempation of splurging, once that tempation is gone, I will be well on my way to my success. and I have proven to myself I can....

**this was originally posted on myspace blog**