So, I am almost there. It's weird to think this time tomorrow, I will have had THEE SURGERY! I met by BF for coffee on Saturday morning and had my bagel--the last one ever perhaps? My son took us out for Chinese food on Friday night. As I sampled the different dishes we ordred I studied the texture of each in my mouth and wondered if I would ever again be able to eat sesame chicken or foil-wrapped chicken. WHat about chow mein or rice? The filet of sole in black bean sauce would seem soft enough. Then I thought it was weird that I had never had to do that before, but would probably be sdoing that a lot in the near future.

My DH went grocery shopping. I reminded him not to buy as much of our regular staples because I would not be eating those for a while. He looked surprised--It made me realize that this will be a family event, not just something that's happening to me!

When DH cooked chicken for dinner, I reminded him, not to cook for me. I would be having creamy broccoli soup for dinner (blahhhh). The two-day liquid diet has been tough--I feel weak and shaky, but I'm trying not to be a wuss because so many others have to do this for 2 or 3 weeks. I can manage! The broccoli soup was all I could do to gag down. Yesterday and today has been a potporri of creamy soups, shakes, water, jello, and pudding. Something solid would be great. The hunger is painful at times. I know this is a means to an end, but the hunger pangs are tough.

I am ready for this change, though, and and proud of the amazing gift I am givingto myself. Don't get me wrong: I know I will have struggles along the way and that I may even have complications, but I know I'm doing the right thing by myself and by my family because they will have a stronger, healthier mom, wife, daughter, friend.

If anyone out there reads this entry this evening, or before 12 noon Pacific Standard Time, please send good vibes my way for an uneventful procedure and a speedy recovey. If you read it after, maybe, I'll have added an update. I am proud to moving onto the next exciting phase of my life.