Morning weight is 181.7.

Still feel that golf ball in my throat and am going to just sip water or crystal light today and not try and get hot cocoa down like yesterday.

If I am still this tight on Monday I will schedule to have some taken out. I am frustrated because it seems that it's such a crapshoot with fills.

If I am overfilled, I have to realize it within 72 hours or I pay another freaking 250 bucks, when it takes about a week for my body (and for many) for the swelling to go down and see where you are really at. I have had this level of fill before and it wasn't enough. I wish there was a week or 2 week window for adjustments. I really cannot know for sure until a good week after the fill and it's frustrating as heck to be .2cc's too much or too little and then I get to spend another buttload of money.

Today I am feeling annoyed with myself for going so off the wagon last month, but I really was in a rut and I was living on milk duds.

I remember being told that as long as I can get saliva down, I am okay, but it seems like right now that's all I can get down. I have kept a few sips of water down this morning, I am always tight in the mornings but yesterday I stayed super tight all day. I need to not think about it too much or the stress will make me even tighter.

Bleah again.