I put this dress as my dream dress and as I believe it is not a dream, it will become reality. I am not looking to be skinny. I want to be neat. So many fat people just look a ....mess. I don't want to be a mess anymore.

I went shopping with my child last night and shopping is always so traumatic. She was trying on tops and looked unhappy and said she looked pregnant....that hurt because I know the feeling. I was sitting in the dressing room thinking I have lost 65 pounds but I am still a mess. I feel better then I use to sitting in the dressing room looking to a mirror but I have a long way to go.

We went to a second store and and we found a nice top but wasn't sure so we went to payless to check out shoes but of course she has her mothers feet (big) so that wasn't so much fun. We went to another store like the second one and they didn't have anything so I had them to call back and hold the blouse at the second store. She really looked nice in it. Now we just have to look for shoes, jewlery, deal with a little make, hair oh yeah and a purse. The capri suit is black, blouse is green with a beautiful silver flower on the front so silver accesories is it. It is fun but stressful. My child does not really like to take pictures so I am going to get her picture taken that day or the weekend when we do the trial run. LOL

It's going to be ok.