I had my 4th fill on Dec. 3. Still, don't feel restricted.

I was 266 at the surgeon's office. Went back to Jenny Craig and bought $50 of food.

Today has been revelation and revelation. I eat "socially" - I eat emotionally. I eat for every reason besides being hungry.

I am supposed to wait till I'm hungry to eat, but I'm not often hungry. Am I really supposed to only eat every few days? I think not.

And, I really, really want a sugar free diet dr. pepper!

I went to the dog obedience trial today, arrived on time, freezing cold.

I waited my turn, I just new today would be a great day.

We had beautiful heeling and signals, nicest job we've done yet. Then, when we get to scent discrimination he searches the pile, and searches it again. I was 15' away willing him to back up and look at the one underneath him. He didn't, he just grabbed one and brought it to me. We failed our test already.

The judge told me to take it from him and finish. I was crushed...

I scented the next article and sent him to find it. He did and trotted back in with it, he knew he had it right.

Then he went to do some brilliant work with the directed retrieve, moving stand for examination, directed jumping.

But, I was really really mad that he missed that article. We could have won! He didn't come to sit in front after the jump. I must have looked mad, and he was avoiding me.

So, I stuffed my disappointment with a double cheeseburger from Wendy's. It got stuck and came back up. The large chili, also from Wendy's, went down good, and the french fries I swipped out of my friend's order... delicious!

When I got home I raided the candy dish and finished the salt water taffy. The I ate the Jenny Craig chocolate cake I'd been saving.

Then I started on the crackers... thought for sure I'd hurl again, but didn't.

Opened a can of chicken and dumplings, and ate my fill. Gave the rest to the dogs.

Tomorrow is another day. We go back to the dog show and we will try again. Maybe tomorrow I won't eat my joy if we pass, maybe tomorrow I won't eat my sorrow if we don't.

I can try.

I'm planning to eat

B - 1 cup oatmeal

L - 1 cup Jenny Craig lunch

D - 1 cup Jenny Craig dinner