If you don't wanna read the tantrum, just stop here....

DAMN DAMN DAMN.... :eek: I am SO tired of this. I am so sick of weighing the same thing that I could throw up :puke:

I have worked and worked and worked. This it the part that makes me the sickest...I am going to have to work this hard just to maintain?! Are you fuc*ing kidding me? For real? Whatever! :ugh:

I enjoy one day of eating what most people would think is a little to a normal amount of 'normal' food and I gain 4 pounds?! WTF?? I can go right now and eat ONE (1) beef enchilada, some rice and chips and gain 5 fu*kin' pounds and it takes a week (or longer) to get it off. I am not band bashing. I thank God for the band. If it weren't for the band I could eat a helluvalot more than 1 enchilada. But give me a break already! The realization that this is my life just BITES sometimes and today is one of those days. Some people reading this are probably like...206 isn't bad...what does she have to bitch about? I'll tell you...I was down to 173 at one point. Yes, I quit smoking, yes I am proud of that but COME ON!!! I am proud that I stopped gaining when I did but still....everyone has the right to be pissed every once in a while. :tt1::cool::tongue2::ack2::drool:

I am just tired. But you know what? At this point all it does is make my resolve stronger. One fine day I will get on that scale and I will be in onederland again and HALLELUJAH....I live for that day!

There is no way you gained 4# from what you ate...foodwise. Saltwise? Yeah, it's all water but you know that. I completely sympathise with you. It has to be extremely frustrating!!!!