That is exactly how I feel right now. I feel like I am needing a fix of something, anything tasty. I know within 30 minutes flat I could have a batch of cookies whipped up and be sitting here with 2 dozen warm cookies and a big glass of milk but I also know that it would be a very dumb thing to do that I would regret immediately after consuming them. I am down to 206 now and if I eat junk tonight I will be right back up about 2 or 3 pounds again and I WILL NOT do that to myself.

I would like to meet one person, anyone that may have said that WLS is the 'easy way out'. I wish they could sit here right now with me in this living room while they watched me agonize over wanting to eat junk. Then let them rethink their position on WLS being 'the easy way out'.

I know I'm rambling but I need to:tongue:. Food addiction is just as bad as any other addiction...maybe even worse. If I was a pill head I could not just go into the kitchen and make some pills. UGH...I hate this feeling. I need to et up and do something but I do not want to pass the kitchen. Maybe I will just lay down on the couch for a little while. Maybe I will call one of my violet sistas for some support. That is what I am going to do. I feel a little better already by just typing this all out.:mad2:

Absolutely don't feel alone.I went so far as to mix up the cookie dough! It's in the fridge because I decided not to start up old habits.This is much tougher than I expected. They warn you about the band just being a tool, but I was not prepared for all the mental anguish! No,it's definitely not the easy way out. Hang in there!

I would be the same, so I don't have any flour, sugar or shortening in the house! I can stare at the cupboard all I want, but there's nothing good there! You are doing better than I could ever do if you can say no when the ingredients are there staring you in the face!

Mental anguish...I held an icecream cone for my daughter's friend while she went into a store for 8 minutes. I believe that I was playing head games with it :mad2: I WON

See I don't get it?? I was playing those head games before the surgery, but now I am in 20,000 debt on top of it. Someone help me!?!

The best thing I can say is to read my bandster rules...forever blog. The band is a TOOL to help LOSE weight...not something to keep you from gaining. You still have to make good choices, it is just easier to make better choices when you have the band because it helps to keep you honest.

Throw away the ingredients! Do it now! Dump dish detergent in the stuff so you don't dig it back out of the garbage. I'm serious; I have thrown away more peanut butter in the past year than I ever thought I would buy.