For the last few days I've been keeping stock of every single thing that I eat and when I eat it and how I'm feeling when I do eat it. Needless to say, I didn't restrict myself so I could get a glimpse into my honest eating habits.

What I realize now is that I need a freaking hobby! I get the urge to eat for no reason whatsoever. I won't even be hungry and I'll want to gorge on something. My stomach will be full and I'll want to eat just a little bit more. I eat a lot out of boredom. I am totally out of control.

Today that changes. I went shopping yesterday and have bought healthier selections and I have a plan. And so far, so good.

It's crazy though how when I wake up, the first thing on my mind is FOOD. I had to actually talk to myself this morning to prevent myself from gorging like I normally do when I first get up. I've decided to wait an hour or so. Wake up. Get a clear head, and then eat a sensible breakfast. Eventually I want to incorporate a morning exercise before breakfast, but I will start that next week.

So this morning I had 2 eggs, 2 slices of bacon and 4 oz of unsweetened grapefruit juice. Lots of protein and very satisfying. It was also a good calorie intake total of 360. My goal is to lose 29 pounds by december 8, which is my surgeon consult. According to my food diary/weight planner, if I stick to right around 1200 cal/day, I can achieve this goal. :cry_smile:

I nearly forgot. In a couple hours I'm meeting with home health to get fitted for my CPAP. I truly cannot wait. I think I'll feel so much better and have a lot more energy once I start sleeping again.