I did not blog yesterday because I was depressed. It is so weird to be depressed over food! I ate well, napped, did some homework and then I went for a walk with my dog, Bimini.

The walking did help, it was a beautiful day in Atlanta. I just felt sad that I have to make these changes for life. I know it is the best thing for me, but it is like saying goodbye to a friend that has been around for a long time. But really for me food is a frenemy! I love it but if I keep up the same habits, the food will kill me eventually.

So, yesterday, while walking, I took some deep breaths, stretched and really made myself be in the moment of walking, and enjoying the sun, wind and air. When I got home I was sweaty and hot and of course hungry. I ate a piece of pork loin, salad, broccoli and a small amount of brown rice.

And I physically felt better. It is the head stuff I am going to have to work through.

This morning so far, I had cherrios, yogurt and I am dying for a cup of coffee! I do not feel hungry at all. That is important because if I get hungry I end up eating everything and anything I can get my hands on.

Once again, I just have to take it one meal at a time, we shall see how it goes.

I know how you are feeling. i was feeling the same way before my surgery, that i was letting go of a friend. However ,its been a little over 7 weeks since i had surgery and i realize its hard and you do have to take it day by day. The best thing you can do for yourself is start making those changes now because it takes a while to train your brain into making those smart healthy choices.

good luck