no snack...are you kidding me?
I made it...I actually made it. I went snackless last night. I guess the 'typing instead of eating' worked! Down another pound this morning. So what if it is fluid. A pound of fluid weighs the same as a pound of fat, it is still a pound any way you slice it, right?:cursing:
I know after I get on a roll again with the weight loss and recatch the "nothing can stop me" attitude I will get back down to my almost-goal weight. Hard to believe I was only 4 pounds away from goal then I blew it. Well, not really because that is when I quit smoking. It has been 6 months now since a cigarette...go ME! But...gaining this much is not OK with me. I will be happy if I get back to 17something. I feel great at that weight and look pretty damn good too. Or at least I think I do and that is what matters to me. To be back at 17something and a non smoker I will consider myself a true winner. So that means I have to lose 34 pounds to get to 179 then I will take it from there. First mini-goal is to be in onederland again. That is 13.5 away.
I was just thinking...when I saw the scale crawling up...when it got to 19something I thought omg...and I just threw caution to the wind and said screw it. When I saw 20something I thought...I sure wish I would have stopped this when I was 19something. Now today I am thinking, there is now way I am going to be at
22something thinking I wish I would have stopped this at 21something. I am putting an end to this foolishness now. I keep hearing Dr. Phil in my head saying "you are drinking Mocha Java Chillers from sonic and you think that is OK, are you kidding me?"
Looking back at when I was first banded I wish I would have done something differently. I wish I had taken this process slower. I lost almost to goal within about 10 months. I went all or nothing full speed ahead and never cut myself any slack. Then when I DID cut myself some slack I went (excuse the term) hog wild. Well, this time I am going to do it differently. I am going to take things slower. I am not in a race to get the 30 something pounds off. I am just going to make sure the scales go down and not up. I will get there eventually.:frown:
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