Disgusted!!
I haven't posted in a while, but what better place to rant? I'm so disgusted!
My 5 month bandiversary is next Tuesday and I've only lost 40 pounds. I'm not too worried about the weight however, it's the inches I want to loose. And I've lost inches, 5.5 in my waist and 6.5 in my hips. This is all great, I realize, but now I've really upped my exercise and I feel like I'm not budging!!!! I do at least 45 minutes of jogging 5-6 times per week. I do 1 1/2 hours of weight lifting twice a week. I eat well and track my meals on dailyplate.com. I feel like I'm doing my part, but my body isn't cooperating!!!
My waist is very small, but my lower abdomen and hips are not. If I find pants that fit my hips, they are huge in the waist. I've always had a figure like this, but in the past I've been more proportional. My size 16s feel like they are going to fall off, but 14s don't fit yet. My favorite pair of jeans are 16W and I can't get into them, not even close!! WTF?!? I feel disgusting and I hate it!!
I know I've come a long way, but I have so far to go. This is the first emotional low I've experienced since being banded. It's so discouraging to be working so hard and still see a disgustingly fat person in the mirror! Shit!!!!
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