Pre-op liquids are going to suck
So I start my pre-op, two week, liver shrinking liquid diet tomorrow. I had planned to start it today, so I am already cheating a little bit, not a good sign. The problem is, I was in the hospital for two days with what I thought was appendicitis, and did not eat any solid foods. I decided I needed an extra day to get my eat on, before giving it up completely. Besides, the paper the doc gave me says 10-14 days, so in theory, any day between now and Sun should be ok, but I wanted to be sure. I am afraid. I am not looking forward to not eating. I keep telling myself that it will be different when I get the band on and have to drink liquids for two weeks, because with the band I won't be hungary. But, I'm not quite convinced yet. :frown:I feel like I need to get a jump on things because I have convinced myself that I am the fattest person on this planet, and maybe others. I'm sure that this is not true, but I must be in the top 1-2%. Anyway, I feel like with all the extra fat, I will need a big jump on sjrinking my liver, as any part of me must be filled with fat.
I am just thankful that I didn't have appendicitis, because, for one, that would have sucked, but mostly because I would have had to put off my surgery and God knows I do not want to that.
So, when I was in the hospital, I had to miss a class. I am in this really intense grad program where everything is accelerated and we are not really allowed to miss any classes, but we are technically allowed one a semester. Any more than that and we lose attendance and participation points. I can't let this happen because I am kinda OCD about this and I have a 4.0 and I can't lose it or the whole world will end. So now, I need to hope that my surgery goes perfectly and I come home exactly on time so that I don't miss the 7 hour (yes, SEVEN HOURS) class that happens three days after my surgery (or two days after I come home) as this counts as two classes worth two attendance and participations, and I have a Monday night class 2 days after that. How does everyone manage life with all this?:thumbup:
I feel like it is all I can think about and I can't focus on work or school or my house or family or friends.
Anyway, I am worried about this liver shrinking diet tomorrow. I feel like if I had enough will ower to do this, I wouldn't be needing the surgery in the first place. I guess I just need to take it one day at a time for two weeks. That is what they taught my dad in AA and Na and this is an addiction right? At least it sure is addictive behavior. I guess this is all I have time for today as I need to get to work on Calculus. My house is falling apart around me, but I just came home from the hospital yesterday with the Appendicitis scare and still feel like crap, so screw the house, right? I can get to it when I feel better. Lord knows the mess aint going anywhere. I need to catch up on homework anyway, at least then I will feel like I am doing something.
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