I'm putting this up because its true for me right now..

I'm headfirst into a funk. Not really a band funk, but a life funk..... and the fact that I got a slight unfill a little over a month ago.. I am able to eat more in quantity and more types of bad food......... NOW I swore that if this happened I would RUN not Walk to get a refill........ however I have not done so yet, because I actually think I am at my sweet spot, I just have to get my head on straight and work my plan.

So the stats...... I had seen a low of 174 a mere 2 lbs away from 100 lbs lost.....

I am wearing a TON of size 10, jeans and pants...........

Since my unfill (.4cc's) I have not had heartburn or daily pb's....

I am able to eat 2 hard shell tacos and be full (this is why I believe I'm at my sweet spot) pre band... 8 taco's would NOT of been a problem.

So...... last week when I weighed I was 184, up 10 since my prior low...... and before you ask..

NO I'm not DOING ANYTHING right!

No water

Graizing

Not focusing on protein

Eating slider foods

Indulging in more "drinks" than I had prior

Exercise (YEAH RIGHT!!!!!)

so, just by changing ANY ONE of the above things would help, but right now I'm just NOT motivated to do it.....

My size 12's are still comfy and loose, but I feel like I'm gaining and that depresses me. Got some marital stress too...... he is actually JEALOUS of the shrinking violets and he hates my band. Got some other marital stress too but that is not band related.... anyway..... some days I just don't even feel like posting. and this is bad.. as it has been the friends that I made on THIS site that has kept me going and motivated and acting as a motivator.... I'm losing the will for it... maybe its the dreaded 2 year post band I don't give a flip funk that I'm entering..... but I need to snap the hell out of it!

My band is still the best thing I've done for myself..... but it is up to me not to ruin it!