I have decided to treat this birthday as most people would treat new years, time to make a resolution to myself. I have never been one to go along with the crowd, so on Jan. 1 when everyone else is doing their new years resolutions I will be at goal! Afterall, my birthday is the beginning of a whole new year for me, right?

Okay, so I am 20 lbs from goal, and I am just screwing around. I can't seem to get my shit together and finish this thing. I don't think I am afraid being at goal, I just think I am a lazy ass who can't do what it takes to be successful. I have not exercised in a week, and my eating is out of control. I gotta do this, I cant come this far and leave it here with 20 lbs to go, I just cant. I have got to let the fat girl go once and for all, and get to the healthy, slim girl that I have been working so hard these last 9 months to become. To let all that hard work go just because I am struggling would be a crime. I have accomplished so much in these last months, I have lost over 50 lbs., I have become a RUNNER damn it! I RAN a frickin' 5k. I don't want to go back to being tired all the time and feeling shitty all the time. I want to be fit, I want to be thin, I want to wear a goshdamn size 6!

I can can can do this! Hell with it, I am not waiting till tomorrow to start, I am starting now. NOW! I am committing to myself and whoever else has the patience to read this that I will get up at 5am and run for 30 minutes. Not walk, RUN!

Cya tomorrow, will report on how things are going, its gonna be okay, I CAN DO THIS!!!

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Go get um!! You deserve to be the best you can be!!!! and fit in a size 6!!!

I'll be looking for you to post tomorrow. and the next day, and the next....