OK, I've identified a pattern. I do well for a week or two, go to the gym, eat right, lose weight. Then I lose my grip and stop going to the gym, eat too much, eat chocolate, gain a few.

WHAT IS MY PROBLEM?

Tonight, I argued with myself as I drove home from work. I could have gone to the gym but I couldn't decide and then I was past the exit.

I like the support group I found but can't remember when it meets. Hopefully, I'll find info here.

People at work got laid off today. I'm still OK but that means more work, more stress, and I feel so sad for my co-workers.

I hurt when I eat too much. Tomorrow I am getting my act together again.

I know I am rambling but I am tired and stressed. I don't understand where I am at with my new boyfriend. We are talking daily and email but the conversations aren't much. He says we will talk about "us" when he comes to town again this month. I like him alot but am wondering if I am just lonely and will happily take anybody who likes me. No, I've rejected plenty of guys. I like this one, but I have a problem trusting anyone because of past deceit.

Too much rambling. Going to bed now.

That's the way I am. I will do good for a little bit and then back to my sweets. I started working out and well, lets see how long that last. When did u get your lapband?

I was banded 6/26/08 so I am more than 5 mos out and only 20 lbs lost. I lost 30 before surgery. I just received an email from a friend who was banded the same day and has lost 50 lbs. Oh well, I am exercising and I know it will start coming off again. I am doing 1 day at a time...