It's been awhile since I have blogged my thoughts and feelings on what is going on.

This LBT is great because I have met a couple of really great people so far and I enjoy talking with them. One actually went to a information meeting in Flagstaff with me.

I am really only torn over one thing. I really want to get the sleeve rather than the lap band but I know for a fact that my insurance wont cover the sleeve and I am so not wanting to wait for a year or two for them to come around and finally add it to their list of surgeries accepted for WLS. I want this done now and not one or two years from me. I'm 45 and want to start living life better than I currently am.

I am in some sort of waiting game right now. I need to wait to find out exactly how to proceed with this. The surgeon's office is calling BCBS of Mass to find out exactly what is required but the initial call looked very promising. I am keeping my fingers crossed and hoping for a call back any time now.

I leave for Ireland two weeks from this Friday. I wish this could've been postponed for just a little bit until I lost a tiny bit of weight. I have no problems walking around etc but I just flew not long ago and dang those seats do not have much room! I had the seat belt out as far as I could and I was so embarrassed that I couldnt put the tray table down. I just pretended that I didn't want anything to drink but I was just too embarrassed too admit, "Yes I'm too fat so I can't put the tray table down" '

I'm flying with my Mom and Sister but that isnt much consulation, they are of normal size and don't fully understand.

When I was in Washington visiting my parents in July I brought up the idea of LB surgery to my Mom. I had pretty much made up my mind at that point I was doing it but just wanted to let her know because as my mother I just feel she has a right to know. I knew she wouldn't be supportive and I was right. She told me with my strong will and stubborness I have always had and my desire to always be competitive and win at all costs she finds it hard to believe I can not win the battle over my weight the "right way"

I suppose I was wrong to think my mom might have a inkling of any idea of what it was like to have struggled with this my whole adult life.

At any rate, I now have the full support of my husband and mother in law. Maybe this trip to Ireland with my mom and sister I can talk about it a bit more. Or maybe I just want a good vaction and I'll give my mom a call the night before surgery lol

NEWS WHICH HAPPENED IMMEDIATELY AFTER THIS POST:

I received a call from the surgeon's office to inform me that my insurance looks good and they want me to meet with the surgeon on September 9th to start the process! YEAHHHHHH