This weekend I am flying to Washington, DC, to spend a long weekend with a man with whom I have had a long distance semi-romance for over 2 and a half years. It's been just over 2 years since we have seen each other face to face, but to hear us talk you would think we hung out every weekend.

He knows everything I have done, gone through, and my progress. I haven't sent photos of me because I want him to be pleasantly surprised, and he has been fine with that.

So why the hell am I so nervous?

I feel more nervous than the first time we spent a weekend together. I am infinitely more confident in how I look, how I feel, and how I manage my lifestyle. I feel great that I have inspired him (not obese, but a little overweight) to hit the gym more and want to move more.

He's not solely a BBW guy (aka "chubby-chaser") so I am not worried that I have lost too much weight. I am not worried about running around the Capitol and not being able to keep up. I am not worried about food or drink or anything related.

He liked me then, he still likes me... so why the f--k am I having this little mental crisis? I haven't changed, we talk all the time, there are no surprises save for smaller clothes and a few bones that are more prominent now.

It's making me nuts (can you tell?) that I am worried about this weekend. All things considered, I should be than calm, more than happy. Instead...

Ugh.

hi felicia, dont feel bad. my b/f met me when i was "curvatious." I told him about my banding and hes afraid i'll lose too much. its our bodies..they have to realize thats what we need. to feel good about ourselves. remember, its all meant for a reason. If he supports you over the phone, he'll support you in person. just remember, dont have any expectations, and i think it will all work out. Good luck hon...think positive :frown:

Kat

You go girl!! you are a true inspiration of feeling good on the outside to match how you feel on the inside. He will see that and it wouldn't matter what size you are. You did this for yourself and I have no doubt that the new confident, beautiful you will shine through and all fears set to rest when he sees your smile. Relax and just be yourself.