I finally have my date set. October 1st 2008. Woot!! This is such an exciting time for me. The main reason why I am doing this is because I know that if I could just get down to my ideal weight, I could keep it off and be proud of myself. Right now, I feel like I am at the bottom of Mt. Everest and no way to get there without some good hiking boots. I have lost about 22 lbs since June by changing my lifestyle and working with the nutritionist. This is a tool for me to get the weight off and keep it off. I can't do it alone and I have accepted that. I let myself get out of control not knowing what was triggering me to overeat. I am getting clarity and learning new ways to deal with my feelings...and even just recognizing them when they happen! This is a huge breakthrough for me.

I currently have high blood pressure, high cholesterol, and insulin resistance. Diabetes runs in both side of my family and my father died from a stroke at the young age of 60. My sister is 400 lbs, 40 years old, and already had a stroke, out of control diabetic. I don't want to go out like that!! I have to much to live for and want to live to be a 100!!!

I thought I should list all my hopes, dreams, and goals. Here they are in no particular order and at random:

1. Become an avid Kayaker. This has always been something I've wanted to do. The world must be beautiful from the view of a kayak.

2. Become a frequent hiker. I have this dream to hike Mt. Rainier. I also would love to hike different trails without becoming embarrassingly winded.

3. I really want to wear a pair of sexy knee high boots and a mini skirt.

4. Shop at Victoria Secret

5. Practice yoga on a regular basis.

6. Become a black belt in Karate

7. Take up snow and water skiing again. Been about 9 years and I miss it!

8. I want to be proud to walk into a place and know that I am the sexiest woman in the room and REALLY know it inside myself. Absolute self love.

Weight 245 lbs 5'2"

Highest weight 267 (jan 08)

Goal weight 125 lbs

oh wow, i so no what you mean. Many on your list is like mine. I just can't wait to not go shopping in the plus size section anymore. i too love the tall boots...I wish you the best..take care :frown:

I hear ya on the boots!!! Me too!