210lbs

Today I drove for 5 hours to the Midlands to get a fill. In October 2007, at 14 weeks pregnant, I was left with 2mls in my band after the nausea and sickness got the better of me and I had a defill. I put 30lbs on during the pregnancy and 7lbs since his arrival. I feel horrible. Although I wouldn't change my son for anything (even 100lbs on!!) but I was so close to getting to a sub 25 BMI.

The stress of caring for the baby only seemed to be appeased by cramming a bar of chocolate down my throat. It really did make me feel better. However, I realise the damage I am doing to myself and although it's only 8 weeks since I gave birth I've decided to have a fill.

Mr Diggory gave me 1ml. He's such a nice fella and I hardly felt the needle going in. He said that he would give me more if I really wanted it but advised to take it slowly for the time being. I agreed and will do all I can to work with the band. I think this is what I need to give myself that kick up the bum and change my mindset.

On the way home I drank a carton of ribena and have since had a black coffee and half a carton of soup. I need to drink more water but it takes so long to consume anything!

Can't wait to start losing again :-)

Hi! Congrats on your new baby!! I was just wondering, I am 2 and a half years into my band and we are considering on having another baby. My main concern is my port, does it hurt when your belly gets big, or when the baby moves around? I've always been sensitive around my port, so it worries me. Can you tell me what was your experience with that? Thank you!!!