Forty-four pounds down!!! Five weeks tomorrow!!

That is quite a bit to say...but the real amazing facts are that I am now noticing a lot of changes in my body. Let me tell you about my recent discoveries!!

I can feel the contour of my bones in my arms and legs now. I can wrap my fingers around my wrists. I have collarbones. And, my favorite...I can cross my legs!!!

Unfortunately, I am going through a bit of body dysmorphic disorder. I have gotten a bit agorophobic (fear of being around people--in short). I also have gotten a bit cynnical of people commenting on my weight loss. I know that they are genuinely happy for me, but after hearing "how great" I look, I think "what was wrong with me before?"

I am dreading clothes shopping (which is imminent). I am so scared of gaining my lost weight back, that I do not want to get a smaller size. I think I will just go, buy the largest size without trying it on, and bring it home. Pretty self-defeating, huh?

I know that these are just temporary feelings and that I will get past them...until then, keep your fingers crossed for me.

I am still amazingly happy and know that this is the best decision I have ever made in my life, but I really do have to rely on my support structure to iron out the wrinkles.

hey redheather.....sounds like u r doing great.....give yourself some well deserved credit......u deserve it.....

Awesome! Keep up the good work.

:thumbup:Thank you guys SOOO much for all of the encouragement!! You guys ROCK!!!