Restriction Leaving
It was great while it lasted, almost a week! Since I canceled my Fill this week, my next one is July 9th. It seems really far away. But, I am resolved to workout more. I already go to the gym for 45 minutes a day 6-7 days a week. So, I figure I will try to increase that to an hour and half. Since I have such a hard time restricting myself to lower calories, I figure I will workout more.
The strange thing, I have never exercised in my entire life. I had childhood asthma really bad and couldn't jog for 10 feet. I also had severe sleep apnea, to the point I had a 5 hour surgery to correct it at 18. I was one of the rare cases that had Sleep Apnea at age 5.
The thought of exercising was always a joke to me. I didn't want to do it and I couldn't do it. So it never was an option. Now, I go, I work my butt off and I feel better. Don't get me wrong - I am counting down each minute while I am there . . . "come on Wendy, 1 more minute at this speed, then you can slow down some, only 2 minutes going backwards, then you can go forward . . . just a little more" Now, I don't know if that will ever go away or if that is how I will always feel about exercising, but either way, I will continue and feel better about myself for going.
Now if I can just get some help with food. I have a bodybugg and I count each and every calorie. I eat way too much 1200-1600 calories a day, but without restriction, this is just a diet . . . a diet I have been on for 4 months . . . a diet where I am still hungry when I eat the small Lapband amount . . . a diet where I feel deprived . . . a diet that I can't do for the rest of my life. So, my 1200 calorie limit gets thrown out the door and I usually hit 1500 a day. I still feel deprived on that. I guess eating 3500 calories a day for most of my life has taken its toll on my brain.
I won't let myself go crazy, I will keep it around this calorie limit until I get restriction. The week I had restriction - I had no problem keeping it below 1200. Ahh, what bliss.
12 more days till my fill.
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