I didn't post yesterday because I went into some kind of downward spiral. I am supposed to be on the preop diet but my son wanted to go out to breakfast with me. He is 12 and I am happy whenever he wants to spend time with me. So we went to our favorite breakfast place and I had a very unhealthy breakfast, and I'll admit, I really enjoyed it. I found out my son loves US history and is a wealth of information about all wars. It was wonderful! But then I grocery shopped and bought things "the kids" would like. I did have a nice salad for lunch (fat free) but ate pizza (2 slices) and popcorn at night. I feel sick today and disgusted with myself, but read through all my hospital paperwork and through these forums and I think my head is on straight again. Nothing but protein shakes today and I'm giving the apartment a good scrubbing so it is clean when I go for surgery Friday. I only work 2 days this week and go to the hospital Wednesday for preadmittance tests. Thursday is my magnesium citrate day at home. The Friday is the big day.

I'm having a hard time with my daughter, 16, who is my support person. She and I had a falling out and she is not speaking to me. Thank God for this forum. She did something wrong but I am the one suffering.

Oh well, I screwed up but now I am ready to face the music. I was embarrassed to post this because there are so many inspiring people on this board and I would like to be one of them, but I am more of a "fall on your face and then get up again" personality. Luckily, I always get up, and that is where my strength lies. Perfection is for other people.

Thanks to the people who comment on my blog. It means a lot to me.

hello we all have a fall or slip everynow an then we all make slipups, who dosen,t i won.t beat you up about it trust me teenagers i have one they will try your patience,all the time give her time she will come around, she won,t be quiet forever smile an we all go to the grocery store an buy stuff we are not suppose to have, it,s ok i wish you luck with your surgery, i,m not band yet ,3 more months to go ,you have my support all the way.

Please do not beat up on yourself. We do that all too much. I blame myself for everything that does not go well in my family, and have lost so much time worrying about this. I too have had bad and good days with the band but it is wonderful. It became my best friend and the only thing that helps me to not over eat. I have lost 118 pounds and still struggle daily. It will 2 years in August. The beginning was the easiest part-now it is hard. Be well and be positive.

Fran

Giving up on something we have all struggled with is probably the hardest thing we all will have to do or done. It is a struggle but at least you identify your mistake and are taking charge of it. Good luck with your surgery!