This is my first blog ever but I am so excited to have found a site of fellow bander's. At this moment I am 376 lbs but my heaviest was 386 lbs. I am not shamed of telling my weight I am shamed for letting myself get like this. I got real depressed after I had my son, I gain so much weight when I was pregnant with. With the depression I gained even more so this is where I am.

I am ready for this I have tried every diet there is and even invented a few. Needless to say I lost the weight but gained more back. It has taken over a year to finally get a date set June 24, 2008. I am calling this day my new beginning. I am getting a second chance to make my life what I want it to be and I am going to take full advantage of it.

I have looked at other blogs and I have found some helpful ideas. I look forward to telling my weight loss journey in hopes that it will help others.

I, too, am finally just telling a few people my weight and no one is running away screaming. It is just a number.

Much of my weight came on because of lifelong depression. I have tried every antidepressant on the market since I was 17. I am now on Effexor XR, which is working really well for me. Please don't give up on yourself, just keep going forward a little at a time! You'll get where you want to be.