Where did the willpower go?
I have had 4 fills and still have no restriction. Up until a month ago, I was doing really well. Eating all the right things (in the right amounts). I started working out. I go EVERY day - and for 3 weeks, nothing, I didn't lose 1 lb. I got discouraged and started eating more - and now I just can't seem to stop.
I have an appointment for my 5th fill on the 25th of this month. I can feel some restriction in the morning - but by lunch, it is if I have no band at all. I am starting to get worried - because I know me and after a few months on a diet - I lose the willpower, as I am doing now. I just hope I can hang in there for a couple more weeks and not gain any between now and then.
I know it takes a while to get to your sweet spot, but I never really thought I would feel like such a failure for not being able to control what I eat. I am very disappointed in myself. Everyday I tell myself, tomorrow, I am going to eat healthy, stay within my calories and follow all the band rules. But when lunch hits, I eat my small amount of food on the plate and sit and wait and hope for any feeling of fullness, or just for the hunger to go away. It doesn't I end up eating more, then feeling bad and eating even worse later because of that.
Tomorrow is another day. I will eat healthier, stay within my calories and follow all the band rules.
But tonight . . .
Where's the Thin Mints!
Oh and I still go to the gym EVERY day. I never thought I would be able to do that.
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