welp it's today

I goto the hosp. for my lapband

at 10:30am and am scheduled for 1:30pm for the actually procedure

yesterday I ran the gambit of emotions

(how's this for nervous) I did a in case of death tape..corny I know, not to mention I bawled at the first of it...

and laughed a lot through the tears too..

I think I went through the grieving process, anger, bargaining etc etc the whole kit and caboodle over the last 4 days

Today i am ready

ready to shed the many layers of viable pain

and start everything over and I mean EVERYTHING in me...

I really started this journey 3 years ago when I started pondering the band...

and for those 3 years of watching and waiting,, I am ready

ready to drop these unhealthy pounds that have weighted me down since childhood

the past 6 months now feel like they have flown by once a month meetings with

our family dr. who was busy getting the ball rolling, the seminar, the paperwork, the evaluation, the OK, the meeting with the Dr and staff for the first time, the meeting with the dr and staff the 2nd time, the payment, the PASS {preregistration}...I am ready

I am prepared I am stoked and not scared not afraid just ready

I haven't been sleeping a lot

maybe 10 for 4 days..

but my house looks good and I worked off a lot of stress and didn't blow my diet.. sure I may have cheated a time or 2 with tastings but I didn't snack attack anything nor went crazy with the "last supper syndrome"

I am ready I'm ready to change old habits and exchange them with more new ones..

I am mentally and physically ready to go

it's been a roller coaster of emotions and thoughts but I am read

and in 2 3/4 hrs..

I'll be ready and THERE...

today always comes sooner then it feels

Our prayers are with you!!!!

I wish you the best of luck! My thoughts and prayers are with you. Come blog about it as soon as you get home! Or in the hospital if you are like some!

Dear LeighDee, I am thinking positive for you and a big hug tonight is with you. There is alot sisters like you who are/were scared but they succeed. Take care little LeighDee. ( excuse my french)

Madame Suzanne

Well said, my friend. I think I haven't quite realized that I actually did this! When I do, I look forward to a sense of accomplishment but I think I am too tired and its been really humid with thunderstorms today; thats sapping my energy too. We better rest up cuz work is going to be yelling for us to come back soon! lol

Thanks m'friends

everything came out fine

and if not fine then funny for sure

Tell us the funny part!

Yes please !!