and i am getting tired of hearing that, ... i know people mean well, but the you have such pretty eyes, if you could only loose weight! What does that mean? I guess only really skinny people should have pretty eyes, or a pretty face!!! I am still me, and chances are pretty good that my eyes aren't going to change much even after I loose the weight. So thinner people are "prettier human beings?" I don't think so, it has taken me 41 years to totally love who I am, and love what i have to offer this world. YES i would like to get healthier and loose the weight. i'll never be a size 2. Actually when I was working at a fitness center out of highschool. I was a size 10 170lb 5'6" all Curves and Lean Muscle. So i don't plan on weighing 120lbs when this is all said and done!!! My first husband was all about the "outer" shell, oh he was a good man. but i didn't fit the mold that he pictured himself with out in the public eye. funny thing, i actually put on the extra weight after having His 3 children in less than 4 years. he left me on our 10th wedding anniversary when our kids were 9,7,and 4........ I was devastated, and I knew he left me because i was "ugly". it took a lot of praying, and a lot of God holding on to me....... but i finally was able to see the value in myself.... and to make a long entry short. I gave away my anger, and insecurity...... i couldn't handle it, I gave it to God! 7 years ago, I met and married a wonderful man who adore me no matter what my size, and supports me 100% of the time. Today i give Him my weight problem, i can't handle it on my own.